6 In pointing out these things to (M)the brethren, you will be a good (N)servant of Christ Jesus, constantly nourished on the words of the faith and of the [b](O)sound doctrine which you (P)have been following. 7 But [c]have nothing to do with (Q)worldly (R)fables fit only for old women. On the other hand, discipline yourself for the purpose of (S)godliness; 8 for (T)bodily discipline is only of little profit, but (U)godliness is profitable for all things, since it (V)holds promise for the (W)present life and also for the life to come. 9(X)It is a trustworthy statement deserving full acceptance. 10 For it is for this we labor and strive, because we have fixed (Y)our hope on (Z)the living God, who is (AA)the Savior of all men, especially of believers.
11[d](AB)Prescribe and teach these things. 12(AC)Let no one look down on your youthfulness, but rather in speech, conduct, (AD)love, faith and purity, show yourself (AE)an example [e]of those who believe. 13(AF)Until I come, give attention to the public (AG)reading of Scripture, to exhortation and teaching. 14 Do not neglect the spiritual gift within you, which was bestowed on you through (AH)prophetic utterance with (AI)the laying on of hands by the [f](AJ)presbytery. 15 Take pains with these things; be absorbed in them, so that your progress will be evident to all. 16(AK)Pay close attention to yourself and to your teaching; persevere in these things, for as you do this you will [g](AL)ensure salvation both for yourself and for those who hear you.
So today that truly was on my heart. I can’t explain it. Today I was blessed (or in other words “last minute/last resort/omg” ) and given the opportunity to lead worship. Um mind boggling. I’m pretty sure it was bad. Considering the day I had and the past few weeks etc. But one of the things I keep reminding myself is it couldn’t have been as bad as those starving, or those homeless, or those with just way worse of a life then myself.
This passage makes me remember to stay focused. I’ve also been struggling for quite sometime with someone. Just the attachment and feelings and etc towards this person. I’ve even been praying against it (as far as hopefully feeling detachment from this person) I don’t get it. But everytime I pray for the detachment it seems like God keeps pulling me closer. so to detach myself from my thoughts i’ve just been praying. Sometimes for the opposite. BUt praying, and trying to stay focused on what God has currently at hand for me. I’ve been reading and studying and ministry-ing it up. But there always seems to be that constant struggle.
So today as I led worship I ready from Colossians 4.
2(B)Devote yourselves to prayer, keeping alert in it with an attitude of thanksgiving; 3 praying at the same time (C)for us as well, that God will open up to us a (D)door for (E)the word, so that we may speak forth (F)the mystery of Christ, for which I have also (G)been imprisoned; 4 that I may make it clear (H)in the way I ought to speak.
5[a](I)Conduct yourselves with wisdom toward (J)outsiders, [b](K)making the most of the opportunity. 6(L)Let your speech always be [c]with grace, as though seasoned with (M)salt, so that you will know how you should (N)respond to each person.
So within trying to preserve how I act, and how I portray myself, but also studying and learning more I also have to stay focused on prayer. And thanking God for every situation. Good, bad, neither. Whatever! just always staying on task and being thankful and prayerful. It’s definitely something that not only God has reminded me of, but my pastor, and many people.
So I’m thankful for every situation to give back to a God that has given me so much. So for me to do horribly in praise and worship is okay because I did it with a heart of servitude and thankfulness. I served.
I type all this is I sit at the Bible College and watch over 50 people attend and participate in their summer program, On The Edge. I am blown away each time God continually gives me more and more time to serve and less and less time to be with my negative thoughts. I’m reminded to be thankful for my opportunity to serve. and to continue to pray for everyone here. Because God is definitely going to work here, but I don’t exactly know how or with who. It could EVEN be Me…
Sooooo… I haven’t really blogged in here lately nor have I been really social network connected. I can’t figure out why, but I think it’s because I was sick of it. Let’s put it in an analogy that I can relate to. It’s like going to your favorite Thai food restaurant, but after going time after time and as much as you love the food you just get sick of it and need a break. Get it?!?!
So I’m slowly weaving my way back into social networking, but very slowly. I decided to blog here today because my other blog is for my photos and this is a personal not where my friends can hopefully read and encourage me, but also a place for me to vent.
So manager?? Nah…As of recently my work took away my “manager” position. I was basically a manager-on-duty or most people can relate to that as being a supervisor. Didn’t really get paid for it. But did it because it was a promotion and was in hopes of being further promoted in the company. Welpps, my manager a month ago took away that position. Pissed?!? Why yes I was. Especially for the reason behind it. But granted I was the only part time M-O-D in our district for over a year. =) So recently she talked to us about reinstating the position but only wanted to give it to one of us. UMMMM…kind of a let down. I knew it wouldn’t be me because I’m part time. (SIDENOTE: but if it’s any slight pick-me-up my other manager told me she totally thinks it could be me except I’m part time.) sOOOO…Basically as bummed as I was I left her office. Prayed and prayed. And thought to myself, “Do I really want to be promoted to further being a manager?” Not that I wouldn’t and not that I couldn’t do the job, but would I be happy?? Do I really see this as my future? What do I do? What do I want to do? So basically I THEN prayed and decided, “Andrew, you’re being selfish.” Granted I know that I’m more than capable of doing this job. More than capable of bringing up my sales numbers etc. I know that. not to sound full of myself, but I used to do it before so what’s different now? Well I just really don’t want to be in sales as a manager. I’m perfectly happy where I am. So I walked back in my managers office and told her that if my opinion counts that I can recommend one person to be that M-O-D and if it wasn’t me then it should be so-and-so. Obviously wasn’t me. Big mistake? Big step? humbling for sure! I knew that it was the best decision. I had to step back and realize that I couldn’t do something that wouldn’t make me happy.Things had to change. I need to be here to support. So there you go.
Life lesson learned. Maturing. Growing. Etc. Good mistake or bad it is what it is. I just can’t believe I seriously just did all this.
Alrighty. well for those of you who don’t know I primarily blog on my photo blog, but I like to blog here as well. Check my photo blog here
I guess this blog is where I can get more personal with my friends - hence YOU people. Yup, you people
Um I don’t know what much to actually say. (Does that even grammatically make sense??)
Recap of my week.
Monday. Went to UCLA. - ALL DAYER.!!! Shesshy.So much fun tho!
I can’t even explain how blessed I am to have amazing friends in my life. Which is why I’m willing to drive that far to visit em and bring others with me.
Tuesday I truly don’t remember. I just remember work and being busy. I truly don’t remember with that? sad times. Oh wait.. I brought my nieces to Chuck E Cheese.
OMG kids are fun but definitely tiring and expensive.
Wednesday - work and didn’t even go to Bible study because I was tired and didn’t feel well, but probably due to over working myself.
Thursday I truly don’t remember aside from work and a craigslist purchase but still tiring.
Friday work - Lock IN! Amazing fun btw
Saturday - Jared’s soccer game, work. and then I got an emergency call from a friend.
I’m glad they don’t have a tumblr, but sometimes I truly pray that friend will be okay.
Sunday - all day church. Thankfully and finally got a 2 hour nap today.
Then the killer - I helped Gaddiel ask Irma to prom!
Now i’m home. EXHAUSTED! Ready for another week
“They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can’t promise that things won’t be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me”